I started You are a Badass, by Jen Sincero, yesterday. Man, is it what I needed! I AM A BADASS!! I am working on self love, one day at a time. It’s amazing what becoming sober can do for the human brain. It’s like meeting someone beautiful for the first time; it’s like going through puberty at 24 years old; it’s like the first time meeting someone, when you’ve been talking over the phone for years.
I highly recommend all of you to read this book. I’m listening to it while I work and it’s truly amazing and uplifting.
While in active addiction for many, many years, I always believed I was worthless and stupid and all these negative things, which I’m sure all of you experience. It is a huge part of the reason I numbed myself for so long. I didn’t know anything else. Coming from an abusive family, growing up, to being around drugs at a very young age. I thought that was just how to you did life. At 18 years old, I was introduced to Heroin and I learned very quickly that it was my solution to EVERYTHING! I didn’t have anything at all, except sadness at first, but then it just turned into my way of life. I lived to get high, I lived for the rush of selling drugs. That’s just how I knew how to live.
Becoming a recovering addict is the answer to ALL my problems. I get to look at myself from a brand new pair of eyes, every single day. I’ve never felt so much love for myself, it is growing everyday. Today I know my worth, at least I’m getting there. I’m far from perfect and I’m accepting of that.
Thank you, all for walking this journey with me as I share my life with you.
“All life is either moving forward and evolving or shrinking back and dying. If you want to evolve in your own life, you have to push through the obstacles instead of running from them. Obstacles and challenges are the agents of growth. Nobody gets to be large and in charge without facing challenges and moving through them. Birth is messy, painful, scary, uncertain, and freaky. Birth is also a glorious miracle that leads to new life. If you want the new life you say you want, you have to do the work instead of just studying and discussing and wishing and wanting.” ~ Jen Sincero, You Are a Badass
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