The quality of being thankful; readiness to show appreciation for and to return kindness.
A modest or low view of one’s own importance; humbleness.
I’ll admit, this morning I was forgetting all the many blessings in my life. I was acting entitled, manipulative and ungrateful. It’s hard to be stuck in that shit but at least I can recognize it a lot quicker then 7 months ago.
I get to stay humble for where I’m at in life and grateful that I have all these amazing opportunities to learn and grow. Also wish not to shut the door on my past because it is ME.
As I type this, it is like a release of all the bullshit in my head. I don’t NEED material things to be happy, I WANT those things to feel productive because I’ve worked hard for these things. What I really need is for God to fill the hole in my heart. I look for distractions like I looked for drugs. The only thing I need is my self love and the love from my higher power.
I’m so very grateful for support that I get from all my friends and all the love I get from my family, even after all the unloving things I did to them. I grateful to have the will to change what’s inside of me. I grateful for the 12 steps for allowing me to get real honest with myself. I’m even grateful for the little/material things that assist me in getting where I want to be in my life; like my AMAZING job that pays my bills so I can be self sufficient and prepare to be a loving, supportive mother and also my car so I am able to help others in need and also get myself to my job.
I love my life today. I get to be humble about how far I’ve come and share that it is possible to not live a life of lies and hate, while also being grateful for the hell I’ve experienced, it allows me to feel raw feelings and see the light at the end of the tunnel.
Look around, see how beautiful the world is?! You are a HUGE part of that beauty. THANK YOU!