So, I haven’t been feeling super inspirational lately so I haven’t been writing as much. The last few days I’ve really been feeling this not writing thing. I need the release.
The process of being mentally stimulated to do or feel something, especially to do something creative.
Inspiration to me is just seeing and feeling someone truly happy. You see that a lot in the program I’m in. it in turn inspires me to get deal and real with someone.
I had the opportunity of going up to Park City this weekend to a Cocaine Anonymous convention and it seriously was what I needed to feel connected in my community and with the fellowship. When I go to events like that it reminds me how loved I am and that I belong somewhere. It feels so good to feel at home some place in the world.
I’ve also been really hard on myself in my head. I’m so annoying, I’m too loud, blah blah blah…. Why does it matter what I am when I’m only being myself? Why do I care what others have to say or think about me? Oh, because that’s what I think about myself. THAT CHANGES NOW!!! I am me! I am real and loving and a great person. That’s all that matters. I am not perfect and I need to embrace that more.
The other night a friend was struggling so I advised her to say “I love you” in the mirror for 2 mins than it hit me, I’ve never even done that so we did to together for the first time and MAN did it feel good. It was like refreshing.
I challenge all of you to say “I love you” in the mirror for 2 min everyday for 2 weeks and see how you feel at the end. See if anything’s changed inside of you. I am taking on this challenge as well. I’ll blog about it, I’m sure.
Well here’s my mind all over the place.. Hope you enjoy. <3