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Month: September 2016

Love and Compassion ❤️

Love and Compassion ❤️

Having love and compassion for others is one of the many keys to happiness. When we understand that everyone has their trials and are willing to have compassion for what they are going through, you will be blessed with happiness.

It is also important be gentle and have compassion for yourself.

A huge part of my recovery is learning that I cannot control others, I can only change what’s inside of me and how I feel about myself. If I find love in myself than I will find love in others.

I need to be gentle with myself and understand that I am growing and changing every single day. Also, be patient with those around you, they are also growing and changing every single day.

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Laugh when all else fails. Laughter is the BEST medicine. Don’t take life too seriously, not one of us makes it out alive. You come into this earth with only your higher power and you will leave this earth with only your higher power but every second in between we all get the pleasure of having that physical contact with another human being. You NEVER have to walk this journey alone.

Life is hard, that’s the beauty of it. We all get to walk through some extremely difficult trials, that’s what makes us who we are today. When things get hard, remind yourself of the things you are grateful for.

toshaI, too have been going through some huge life changes. Becoming sober for 1, but my relationship with my daughter’s father just ended after 6 years. It’s been very difficult to not find validation in others around me. I know I have to fill that hole in my heart with love for myself and love with my higher power. I’m learning to love my daughter’s father from afar. I don’t know what the future holds and if we’ll ever have a relationship again and that’s ok. I know I can get through this, one day at a time. Trusting the amazing support around me and also trust in my higher power that he will guide me in the best direction.

I try to find a positive in every negative. Good things come out of all things. I’m trying to remember that today. Today will be a great day, because I choose it to be that way.

Thank you, to all those who read my blog. Much love. ❤️

YOU ARE A BADASS!!

YOU ARE A BADASS!!

I started You are a Badass, by Jen Sincero, yesterday. Man, is it what I needed! I AM A BADASS!! I am working on self love, one day at a time. It’s amazing what becoming sober can do for the human brain. It’s like meeting someone beautiful for the first time; it’s like going through puberty at 24 years old; it’s like the first time meeting someone, when you’ve been talking over the phone for years.
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I highly recommend all of you to read this book. I’m listening to it while I work and it’s truly amazing and uplifting.

While in active addiction for many, many years, I always believed I was worthless and stupid and all these negative things, which I’m sure all of you experience. It is a huge part of the reason I numbed myself for so long. I didn’t know anything else. Coming from an abusive family, growing up, to being around drugs at a very young age. I thought that was just how to you did life. At 18 years old, I was introduced to Heroin and I learned very quickly that it was my solution to EVERYTHING! I didn’t have anything at all, except sadness at first, but then it just turned into my way of life. I lived to get high, I lived for the rush of selling drugs. That’s just how I knew how to live.

Becoming a recovering addict is the answer to ALL my problems. I get to look at myself from a brand new pair of eyes, every single day. I’ve never felt so much love for myself, it is growing everyday. Today I know my worth, at least I’m getting there. I’m far from perfect and I’m accepting of that.

Thank you, all for walking this journey with me as I share my life with you.

“All life is either moving forward and evolving or shrinking back and dying.  If you want to evolve in your own life, you have to push through the obstacles instead of running from them.  Obstacles and challenges are the agents of growth.  Nobody gets to be large and in charge without facing challenges and moving through them.  Birth is messy, painful, scary, uncertain, and freaky.  Birth is also a glorious miracle that leads to new life.  If you want the new life you say you want, you have to do the work instead of just studying and discussing and wishing and wanting.” ~ Jen Sincero, You Are a Badass

I hope you all enjoy my writing. Stay tuned for more 🙂

 

A New Beginning!

A New Beginning!

First I’ll start by saying, I’m Kjarsti and I’m a grateful recovering Heroin, Coke, Alcohol, basically anything I can get my hands on, addict.

I have been sober for 220 days today! What a miracle. It has been the most challenging and amazing thing I’ve ever gone through. This is my first post so bear with me.

Because I was numbed by drugs for so long, I’ve never known what truly makes me happy. But the day I got off Heroin and Coke, Nov. 11 2015, I knew that was the beginning of a whole new life. That was the day I was caught for selling drugs and taken to jail for 2.5 months. This is where my recovery really began and the first time I was actually absent from any mind altering substance in about 12 years. I’ll say that going to jail was one of the best thing to ever happen to me, other was  becoming a mother, of course. But while in jail I thought I could get out and just drink, so that’s exactly what I did. I learn very quickly that that wasn’t possible and moved into Sober Living. We’ll get more into that.

This blog is just a beginning for me to learn my own way of communicating my thoughts and feelings. I hope that by starting this I can help someone along the way. I feel a passion for expressing my experience, strength, and hope. So please if you have questions, do not hesitate to ask.

This post is to just open up this blog so there will be much more to come so stay tuned. Thanks!