Today I hit 8 months of complete sobriety, next month I will have a year off my drugs of choice, Heroin and Cocaine. This is a huge milestone for me, everyday sober is a milestone in my book. I have grown so much as a woman and mother. I am truly grateful for all the obstacles God has placed in my life.
One of the biggest lessons I’ve got to learn is that there is always a light at the end of the tunnel and nothing is permanent. I’ve also learned that I have a lot more fun when I’m sober than when I have some kind of substance in my body.
It’s almost surreal that I’ve made it this far. I feel better and happier then I’ve ever been. I have my moments through out the day that are really difficult but I know I can get through them. God has played a HUGE part in me remaining sober.
I am on my way to getting the life I’ve always wanted with my daughter back in my life. I have had so many opportunities to learn and grow. I couldn’t have done it with out all the support I’ve gotten from my family and my second recovery family.
Last night I had to opportunity to go see one of my favorite Rap artist, Machine Gun Kelly and I made it through until the end, completely sober, with everyone drunk and smoking weed around me. I’m so grateful I did not have the desire to get high. I felt the music is everything bone in my body and it was completely amazing! I got to connect again with one of my greatest recovery sisters in a very important moment in the night and it was just the cherry on top of everything.
I truly understand all the wonderful things sobriety does for the body. I felt that to the full extent at the concert.
Being an addict is such a bittersweet disease. In active addiction is when it hurts the most, but all the amazing thing you feel in recovery makes it all worth it. I can actually say today that I am a grateful recovering addict and I will live it to the fullest.
I pray that my experience and strength and give someone out there hope that it is possible to feel true happiness. Life definitely isn’t easy but it’s so worth it, if you’re willing to do the work to get there. I am so perfectly imperfect!
Thank you for sharing 🙂