Well hello there, my fellow humans! <3
I haven’t written in almost a month and that is because I haven’t had much inspiration. I feel the most inspired to write when I’m working a good program. And quite honestly, I haven’t been doing much of that, the last few weeks but hey, at least I recognize that, today so I can do something about it. And that’s exactly what I’m doing.
I’ve picked up on my daily readings and daily inventory of self and I’m also meeting with my sponsor sometime this week so we can meet and talk about the wonders of life and get into the Big Book; which is something I haven’t done with another recoveree sense I finished the 12 steps. I’m definitely feeling it. Working with another addict/alcoholic is one of the biggest steps/motivators to stay sober so that’s exactly what I need to pick up on, if I want to stay sober.
Although, I haven’t been doing my best in my program, I am definitely feeling a shift in my love for myself and for others. I’ve definitely shifted into the more positive side of life. I’m finding myself smiling A LOT more, these days and the urge to be of service is growing! I’m doing my very best to be accepting of all things, today. I have more love for myself, therefore, I have more love for everyone around me.
About a week and a half ago I went out to my Mom’s house in Long Beach, CA to visit with my Aunt, my Mom and my most amazing daughter, Lilli for the weekend. It was the most amazing experience to be in the moment with family. It’s the first time going to CA sense I’ve been sober and let me tell you, getting to be present with the most amazing gift from God, my Lillipad, reminded me what I’m doing all this work for, other than myself, of course. Making her laugh uncontrollably, knowing that she hasn’t forgotten me and never will forget me, was a reminder that I did the right thing when I put her care in my Sister’s hands.
Another amazing experience I had was, getting to walk to the beach every night, because my Mom lives 2 BLOCKS from the sand, I know, I know!! #BLESSED! Anyway, I walked to the beach every night after putting Lilli down to sleep and just getting to have that alone time was EXACTLY what I needed. Feeling the waves of the ocean crash on my feet, with the sand between my toes, is one of the most amazing physical sensations. Being one with Mother Earth, God and myself all in one moment, completely took my breath away.
What an amazing life I live! I couldn’t be in more gratitude for all the blessings/promises my Higher Power, who I choose to call God, has put into my life.