Ok, so my world has really been shifting in a serious positive way the last few weeks. My self-love has grown immensely, as well as my self awareness. That’s not to say that I haven’t had my days where I’m just like completely confused about what’s going through my mind.
Like today, I’m on the verge of this huge shift and it’s right there, I can pretty much taste it and it just feels FUNKY! Like my thoughts are just in a WEIRD spot. Half of me really recognizing how well I’m doing and really loving myself and than the other is like what the hell is wrong with me? I’ve been single for 4 months (yes, I’m fully aware that so not even a long time, but in my world, it kind of is.) and no one that I’m even interested in has come into my life.
Wow, ok now that I finally have written that out in words, it sounds so odd and inaccurate! Power in words for sure!
So, today has been a little funky feeling, yesterday I wasn’t feeling well so I took the day to myself and my best friend of 16 years had her first child last night and I’m super giddy about that. Yay, babies!
Things are going SO WELL, no wonder I feel funky. If you would’ve told me a year ago that my life would be where it is today I probably would’ve seriously laughed at you and told you to fuck off! Sad, but so true. I had no idea of my worth.
God was just telling me I need to share what I’m feeling so I get on my blog and I haven’t even written anything in 2 weeks and in that 2 weeks I’ve gotten like 2,000 hits. WOW, I almost started crying because it’s amazing the growth I’ve done in the last few months and I’m so honored to get to share my experience with all of you! Thank you so much for reading and sharing.
It’s so crazy to think that last Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years AND Lilli’s birthday I was behind bars, at the very beginning of my BEAUTIFUL journey! I have no idea where I would be if I wouldn’t have gotten arrested that day, 11/11/2015.
I’m on the amazing road to being the amazing mother I was always meant to me. Just getting the opportunity to be present and see the amazing growth that my Lillipad has made in the last 1.5 years that she hasn’t been with me, is worth all the work I’ve done. I’m so grateful for my sister and brother in law for just flourishing with her. Loving her more than I could’ve ever imagined.
Thank you, everyone for cheering me on and loving me no matter what! You all mean the world to me. And a special thank you to my Higher Power for guiding me in the direction of happiness and acceptance. <3